Do I Want A Conscious Partner?

Do I Want “A Conscious Partner”?
Of course I do... who wouldn’t?
 
There’s a reason I desire a Conscious Partner.
In my heart, I know how special it will be.
The connection... mentally, emotionally... and physically.  
But do I really understand what it means to find one?

Attracting a Conscious Partner will require me to also be conscious.
To take control of and regulate everything that is me.
 All of it, even the parts that I don’t want to address.
Am I willing to put in the effort required in order to attract what I seek?

It’s not for the faint of heart.
Hopes and prayers will not get me there.
Opening my third eye will not get me there.
Words, platitudes and avoiding the truth of who I am... will not get me there.

There is only one way to get there.
I must know myself. Understand myself.
Recognition, Authenticity, Transparency, Responsibility, Consistency, Acceptance
The 6 Conscious Principles
 
Knowing, understanding and examining every aspect of myself will get me started.
Letting go of the walls around my heart and my mind will keep me on the path.
Truly forgiving everyone who has ever wronged me will get me further.
Forgiving myself will have me even closer.
 
And then just one more step will take me over the top.
The ability to truly accept myself... to be able to laugh at my own flaws.
Sure, I can adjust some of them, but not all of them.
They’re mine.... and they are what make me who I am.
 
Nobody’s perfect, and that means we all have flaws.
I have to identify mine, change the ones I can change.
And then learn to accept and live with what remains.
Without transferring the responsibility for my flaws to someone else.
 
So how do I know when I’m being unconscious?
It’s actually pretty easy when I pay attention.
My words and actions quickly reveal my state of mind.
I simply need to listen to what I say and really "feel" my emotions. That’s all it takes.
 
If I am unconscious I will react, rather than respond.
I will get defensive rather than curious.
I will find someone to blame instead of accepting my part and then addressing the issues at hand.
And I will constantly feel disrespected and let down. I will always be the victim.
 
I get to decide if I want to be conscious.
I can choose to put in the effort.
I can choose to open up... to release... to grow.
Or not.
 
In time, I will attract a partner that is roughly as “conscious” as I am.
It is at that point that we will either grow together... or we will grow apart.
I will not be able to control what she will want to do.
How much effort she will want to put in.
 
I can only control me.
My effort. My growth.
And that is what I choose to do.
Maybe one day someone will join me.